augustopiccio's Xanga

Saturday, September 08, 2007

Sat, 08 Sep 2007 17:22:06 GMT

Can't think of any accompanying text for this.

Friday, August 17, 2007

Fri, 17 Aug 2007 16:48:11 GMT

"Be very careful, then, how you live-not as unwise but as wise, making the most of every opportunity, because the days are evil." Ephesians 5:15-16

Monday, August 13, 2007

Mon, 13 Aug 2007 16:09:41 GMT

So I got a macbook pro yesterday...although I'm not using it at the moment. For some reason I'm having this sense of guilt getting it because of how much it ended up costing in total and how my parents and I had to figure out a plan to finance it...In the end it kind of feels like I don't really deserve it. I'm trying to convince myself otherwise, telling myself that I do need this since I'm becoming a lot more mobile and don't always work from home anymore. This thing will last me a good 5-6 years until a new one...But still. It's just sitting there right now cause I feel bad about getting it.

Tuesday, August 07, 2007

Tue, 07 Aug 2007 07:17:28 GMT

Dreaming about something, chasing after something...
Time flies by too fast, and I can only do one of the two
I call out to my heart with a half-forgotten voice...
Surely here, surely today, love definitely exists.

Tuesday, July 31, 2007

Tue, 31 Jul 2007 04:16:48 GMT

was feeling pretty good for a while..but something's amiss. and i'm not sure what.

Friday, July 13, 2007

Fri, 13 Jul 2007 07:28:00 GMT

I might as well put this to use.

Tue, 10 Jul 2007 09:01:20 GMT

Now originally I hated xanga when it came out. That was a while back...back when I had gotten into normal blogging. I had a host, eventually got my own domain, got two domains, blogged regularly on one, then eventually it turned into what it is now, a journalistic photo blog of some sort. Usually before I enjoyed being able to rant about my days of how rigorous high school was, and how fun it was to hurt people intentionally, etc. etc. But as time went, I became more choosy with the words I would put out in public, never really wanting to share my more deeper feelings on certain subjects (trying to be somewhat vague here). Only because I was afraid of what I would put out and how people would portray my thoughts. I didn't want to seem like an immature high school kid, so I kept to a minimum, barely hinting information. Eventually I became inspired by fellow friends to start taking pictures more often, leading to what it is now. However now there's no outlet for me to express myself verbally. I have all the right to do that on my blog, but strictly I would like to keep it at what it is in its present state. Photos.

So here I am at this hour, trying to keep my mind free of thought in order to get to sleep. No. Not the case. Really it's never the case. Usually I contemplate about my day, tomorrow, people, life, money, relationships, etc. Then I talk to God about these things, ask Him for guidance, and thank Him for never leaving me hanging. After that I turn on my iPod and sleep.

Recently this hasn't been the case. Lately, I've been very worried about me. Growing up, really. I know, I'm just so young and naive, I'm only 19 and yet there is so much to learn-I have no idea who I am. Exactly my point! I don't know who I am! And yet, I'm worried that when I find out who I am, I won't like me! I'm afraid of...not learning how to be responsible, having to be so dependent on my parents or my friends, or anyone. I'm afraid of both new and old relationships becoming sour, like they have before...becoming overly attached to the people I care about, only to push them away even farther than ever...I'm afraid of doing the wrong things to people, giving the wrong impression of my meaningful intentions. I don't know what it is really. I'm afraid I haven't changed at all. Since high school, I feel like I haven't changed at all. At all.

Surely. Surely there is more to it than this...

And even if no one reads this...or just admires it from afar...it feels good just to let it out. for once.

i was never one to use xanga...

Wed, 06 Jun 2007 16:29:32 GMT

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